I feel like i should be more careful. I’m jumping into this relationship head first, eyes closed. Last time i did that, i crashed and burned and rumor is the guy didn’t even like me in the first place.
I feel like i should be less available. Maybe i should play hard to get? But how can i when he already got me and he knows it?
I should act indifferent when he compliments me. How many other guys do the same thing and i just shrug, smile, and say thanks? I thought i had become immune to words that were thrown at me like ‘beautiful’, ‘smart’, ‘funny’, but when he says them it’s like they’re new, and for the first time they have an effect on me. Butterflies, no, moths, fly around in my stomach.
I just.. i don’t know how to handle this. I’m so used to being cool-headed, and prepared for anything but i don’t know what his next move is. That makes me sooo nervous.
I just…
Blah.
Should I forward you all the bazillion texts I have sent you about this? Or, better yet, change up the names of the last chapter of When The World Comes Down On Me and make it yours and Plovert’s name? Because trust me, it would work.
